Sometimes we forget to reflect on our successes, no matter how big or small. We tend to get so caught up in what's not going right and where we want to be, that we forget where we came from. I know this sounds obvious, but it's times like right now, while my girlfriend and I are cleaning the apartment and she's playing my first EP recorded with my old band, Always On Time, that it hits me. I've probably written over 30 songs since that EP's release in March of 2015 (now under my name Jamison Chester Fox) which is crazy to think about. It's just as crazy to think about how the songs I chose to record and make real have been pushed to the back of my mind. Songs that embodied who I was, specific events, and people in my life have been put in a metaphorical attic in my head. These songs are very much a sound timeline of my life over the past five years. Maybe even longer than that. It never ceases to amaze me how quickly a song can bring you right back to a particular time and place and state of mind.
Reflection is so important. I'm having trouble putting it into the right words because it really is unbelievable that we have this ability to make memories real. I feel incredibly lucky and grateful that I'm one of those people who can take my life experiences and mold them into something tangible like music. What's even more amazing, is that someone else wants to experience those moments with me and can relate to them on some level. It truly is the best form of flattery and it never gets old.
The song from the EP that inspired me to write this post is called "The Perfect Storm". It's about all the beautiful and tragic moments that come with experiencing love for the first time. That sounds epic right? I've become so used to hearing it and performing it that it's lost a lot of its novelty. I can never get back the emotions of when I first wrote it and I have a hard time accepting that. But right now, it's not about that. It's about how far I've come since writing that song. I'm a happier and healthier person. That song is a reminder that I'm on the right path.
So here's my reflection. Since the release of my EP - Time Are Changing, I've finished an intensive internship in music therapy and have become a Certified Music Therapist (CMT) and high school music teacher. I've met so many new people and made new friends. I'm two years into my first healthy, long-term relationship and we have two cats who we both adore. This is the first time in my life I'm making an effort to be proud of all my accomplishments and not just gloss over them while I'm reaching for my next goal. It's good to be ambitious but it's just as important to reflect on how you got there. Remember to remember.