I almost wrote this yesterday, but I'm glad I didn't because I'm in a much better head space now. I knew going in that anything related to the music business isn't for the faint of heart. I have continue to remind myself of this because I know I'm not even close to where I want to be. The worst part is, I'm already spiraling into small bouts of depression (please take care of yourself if you ever feel like this too) and the one thing I love is starting to feel like a chore. If you're not discouraged, read on.
Songwriting usually comes very naturally to me. I have an idea or a melody, I play some chords, and voila,
a song is written. Some songs take me longer than others (a few days compared to a few hours), but in the past two weeks I've written about six different songs that overlap, have terrible melodies, and are no where close to being finished. As I'm typing this, I can't help but think, why am I doing this to myself? This is all clearly a choice and I can stop any time I want. Except I won't.
Between my girlfriend and my therapist helping me to recognize and celebrate small victories, I feel obliged to share a few that will hopefully keep me going and help me move up to the next level. I'll keep it short and sweet. I had a meeting with a VIP at BMI and of course my expectations were much too high and I left feeling quite a bit deflated. Out of all the songs I played her (small victory because there were 8), the one song that means absolutely nothing to me was the one song she thought was okay. When I wrote the song, I knew it had commercial appeal. I'm also annoyed with myself that I wrote a song with stupid lyrics that are pretty much meaningless to me but they're fun.
Anyway, I was so caught up in the moment that this very important person wanted to listen to all the songs I sent her, that we ran out of time to talk. So what did I take away from this meeting? Well, she told me to find a producer and a session singer and recommended I take songwriting courses at Song Arts Academy in New York. I did and I am. I found a producer on Instagram from Holland whose music I really liked. We emailed back and forth and it seemed like things were going to work out. I found a session singer on Soundbetter.com for a reasonable price ($185). I haven't heard from the producer in several days after asking him a bunch of questions about copyright, publishing, and labels. *Word to the unwise and learning, read up about publishing and rights to your songs. That shit is important.
So that kind of sucks and I may be out $92.50 (I only paid half so far) and I have no idea what he's going to do with my song but on the bright side, another kind producer/mixing engineer contacted me after I posted on a local Facebook page looking for producers. He seems to be very genuine, knowledgeable, and wants to help me for what seems to be an unbelievably affordable price to record 4-5 songs. He also has industry contacts that are invaluable that I may be able to meet with at some point. I'm still working out details, but things are moving along even with a few bumps in the road. To those of you pursuing the same path, don't do this for anyone else but yourself. You're going to be told many contradictory things about what you should do, who you should contact, how you should write etc. At the end of the day, you are your own advocate no matter any advice you are given. Love music first, be audacious, persistent, and patient and success will follow.